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Merry Christmas!

  Last evening was dark early and freezing cold; just as it should be in Seattle this time of year. Yet, we bundled for the elements and  soaked up the infectious excitement of a toddler off to see Christmas light for the very first time. It was pure magic; the kind that warms you from heart to head to toe. Nothing like seeing the scene above through the eyes of a little one. This Christmas Season, I’m going to try looking at the world like it’s all new to me; as if I’ve never seen the beauty of the lights, tasted the freshness of a candy cane, or put eggnog in my coffee. I’m going to be in awe at Christmas Eve service and sing carols like I did growing up – loud and off key. And I think I’ll take walks at night with my husband and our dogs and love the sky no matter what’s coming down – rain, snow, moon light, star light – whatever’s going on, it doesn’t matter. It’s all good and I am lucky to be here, alive and well, with people I love who love me too. Have a very Merry Christmas! God…

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A little space…

One would have to be living under a rock to avoid the assault of the holiday frenzy.  And what a frenzy it is! Merchants advertise repetitively, drilling their “must have” merchandise into our subconscious. Cinnamon, nutmeg, and eggnog hold hostage our sense of smell, all that glitters is gold, at least for now anyway, and don’t stupidly fall behind today’s cutting edge technology. You dinosaurs must keep up! “Wake up people!” the economy screams. “It’s time to spend some money and do it with a smile on your face! Quit being so selfish. Your retirement can wait!” I can’t even watch television anymore. It’s so sad. Does he really have to go to Jared’s for me to be happy? Am I going to be snubbed if I’m the only woman without an open heart from Kay Jewelers? And seriously, how do they get that big red ribbon around that nice little Lexus parked in the driveway where snowflakes glisten and children listen, and the mom of the house, looking far too young, bounds out the custom front door of her million dollar home wearing mere cashmere while jangling the keys and blinding us with her white as snow teeth? It’s…

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Just Thinking…

I hope everyone had a “making-good-memories” kind of Thanksgiving. After all, that’s pretty much what we’re doing as we stuff the turkey and bake those pies; making memories for ourselves and those we care about and hoping it will be so wonderful we’ll cheerfully look forward to next year. Although ours was the smallest gathering ever, we had a memorable time. Even though it was cold, the day was sunny and perfectly still. We built a roaring bonfire on the beach and delighted in our baby grandsons fascination. It was toasty warm and we played around our beach fire for hours. At dinner, we ate way too much and complained about our aching stomachs. I couldn’t help but feel a tiny bit guilty, wondering about those out in the cold or those with stomachs aching from hunger. I bought a couple of those pre-packed holiday dinners in a brown bag the grocery stores put together and sell for the food banks. That way, shoppers don’t even have to think about what to donate. Just buy the ten dollar bag, leave it with the cashier, and you’re done. At least I did that much, I told myself. It was better than…

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November Blahs…

Life needs a little perking up. I’ve noticed this about everything lately; the house, the decor, our activities or lack thereof, the routine, meals, hair style, relationships. It’s as though I’ve forgotten to freshen anything up for a long time and just now noticed how stale it’s all become. I’m starting to perk things up around the house with new sofa pillows although I can’t seem to find the look I’m after. I’ve shopped on-line and through brick and mortar and have had no luck. Picking out fabric and having some specially made just might be the way to go. At least I’m thinking about it which in itself makes me feel adventurous. Doesn’t take much. I moved a few small pieces of furniture around and relocated a couple of plants. That helped. And I raked the yard, bagged all the leaves and pulled every weed I could find. I think planting a bunch of spring bulbs before it’s too late is a good idea. Anticipating a yard full of flowers brightens things up, if only in my mind for the time being. My hair dresser changed my style and gave me a great cut. I love it and feel…

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If This Tree Could Talk…

In San Antonio, Texas, there stands a land-mark Oak tree in the heart of the Alimo. It is one hundred and one years old and is an attraction in its self. The immense tree stands tall and sprawling, opening its arms to welcome visitors from all around the country. I wanted nothing more than to climb up the trunk and on to the draping branches that bow low to the ground, an invitation to make myself at home if there ever was. In my dream, I would settle into the natural cradle way up top, pull out a journal and write. I can only imagine the feelings, visions, and emotions I would experience as I coaxed stories from the soul of my new found friend. The tree weighs seventy six pounds per cubic foot. I think it could hold me just fine. The mighty branches are so heavy they touch the ground then find strength and support to begin reaching up again, high into the vast Texas sky. Yet, we are asked to honor the restrictive border surrounding the tree and keep off.  It’s a protected tree, you see. We aren’t allowed to feel it’s great strength under our insignificant…

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Surprise, surprise!

      I don’t know why it’s such a surprise to find it dark as we head out the door in the morning. And, we’re all blown away because sunset is at 4:45 this afternoon which makes it pitch black by 5:00.  It happens every year at this time, yet it’s always so shocking. “Can you believe how dark it was at 5:00?” we ask each other as though the whole situation is a serious freak of nature. “I can’t believe how dark it is in the morning! It’s like getting up in the middle of the night.” To make it worse, we have these notoriously gray days; rainy, windy, dark depressing days. Our beautiful Pacific Northwest falls flat on it’s lovely face in the winter. Yet, apparently not for everyone. There are those who dwell among us with webbed feet and closets full of REI rain gear. They outfit up and take on the weather like warriors. Those are the aliens spotted combing the beaches in torrential rain storms, hiking through our dense forests dodging falling trees in hurricane force winds, stomping through flooding streams and mud filled trails. I have such respect for those conquerors of the…

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Evolution

  I recently had a conversation with a woman we’ll call Barb, who told the story of her son having a sleep over at his friend’s house. When Barb picked up her son the following morning, the friends mother carried on about what a pure joy Barb’s son was to have around. She was baffled, saying he is normally surly and miserable and rarely even talks at home. It got me thinking about how we wear different hats all though our lives, taking one off and donning another to fit whatever environment we find ourselves in. Often, we have one hat for family, one for work, one for our friends, etc. As the years go by, some of us fail to realize it’s okay to pick one hat and stick to it. After all, there comes a point where we know who we are. Once we have that figured out it’s our job to honor ourselves by being true to ourselves. My first job in high school was at a fast food restaurant. The owner of the burger joint was a family friend and he has never once passed on the opportunity to remind me, in the most condescending way,…

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The Gray

It occurred to me the other day, that I spend most of my life in the gray zone. It’s as though I can never really make up my mind about a million different things. Doesn’t that make me a bit wishy-washy? And if it does, I need to correct the situation because I have a hard time with that myself; people who leave me wondering about their true feeling, beliefs, ideas, points of view. It’s not that we need to agree – not at all. It’s just the desire to know people honestly. I’d rather spend time with people I completely disagree with than with someone I’ve never scratched the surface with. At least we know where we stand in each others eyes and can respect that . And why dance around, why hold back? All we have to lose is a friendship that was never really there to start with. It was just a pretense. I guess it’s an age thing, but by this stage in life I hardly see the purpose of wasting time in the gray. For example; I have been on a half-diet plan for at least fifteen years. It’s a kind-of, sort-of, if it fits…

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Second Time Around

Sad to say, but there were many things I was looking forward to not having to do after the kids grew up, such as standing out in the wind and pounding rain watching softball or football, or whatever it was. And as much as we all pretended to love squeezing one more thing into frantic holiday schedules by attending yet another holiday kids concert, we couldn’t wait to put the video camera down and go home. And remember those painful ballet performances and piano recitals? All the nerves we took on because our kids were so nervous? How we were so excited and scared for them we almost thew up ourselves? Oh, and what about the obligatory pumpkin farm that was a must-go-to this time of year. Anybody miss traipsing around with the kids in mud up to our knees with wet frozen fingers and runny snotty noses? Well, I have to admit I miss every last bit of it. It’s what makes grand-parenting so great. We raise our kids, take a good long break, realize we kind of miss it all, and then get to revisit the past through our grandkids. It’s the best! No guilt attached if we…

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Rethinking It

It’s that time of year again, the one where the world gets in the way and ruins everything; the ever so revered Holiday Season. It’s no wonder so many have a tough time handling life from the end of October until January 2nd; there is so much pressure from so many directions and the persistent messages are conflicting. Retailers and media hyp join forces and collide with sanity and common sense. After all, what’s the purpose and meaning of it anyway? Given the opportunity, the retailer-media team will psych the entire country into believing there is no excuse for being dressed like a normal person on October 31st., a feast to beat all feasts must be prepared and served to an army on November 28th, and credit cards should be charged up enough to rival the national debt or no one is going to have a happy Christmas. To top it off, New Years Eve is to be celebrated with all that glitters, stretch limos, and champagne that flows flows flows! Yet, we must not drink and drive, so figure that one out. Obviously, we are expected to stay in a nice hotel close by the party and take a…

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